No excuse, none

Well I take that back I could make excuses but what's the point right? Excuses are like rear ends everyone has one. Its about self accountability and the ability to accept the mistakes and downfalls and turn around and make them a positive.

Anyways here's what's been going on since the last post here on my "A Journey To Myself" blog. The working out really subsided due to my own fault and allowing outside influences to affect my workouts. As I had mentioned in another post I had read the book "Unlimited" by Jillian Michaels. In that book she mentioned what I have come to call "Life Scheduling". Basically you preschedule your week in advance and try to stick to a regimen. Obviously as part of this you have to be flexible for when life happens.

Well some of my outside influences had me believing that this prescheduling and regimented life style was a not so good thing. Several people had pointed out that I became frustrated or flustered if I didn't adhere to the schedule. As a result I had many hiatuses this past month from the gym and working out. I'm at a point in my life where this regimented lifestyle is the only way I will reach my weightloss and life goals. So effective tomorrow regardless of what people say or think I go back to my regimen.

I did finally get my new Billy Blanks PT 24/7 DVDs, gloves, & bands. I did a few workouts on them and unfortunately due to technical issues with the TV had to stop. Another pitfall. As life would have it both my TVs died on me simultaneously. Subsequently I am now renting to own a very nice TV and plan on reintegrating those into my workout. I just have to type up the rotation that came with the DVDs to match the days of the week.

Anyway I can literally count on 1 hand how many times I've worked out since the last post. Sad, pitiful, and really discourages me. There are too many outside influences trying to drag me down and keep me negative. Its a struggle everyday. I've had perhaps a few breakdowns this past week or so where I literally wanted to come home and just cry for a while.

I'm not happy with me. Not happy at all. As a result I know that will affect how much or how little I put into my workouts. But I've gotta get back up and going again. My goal is by 01/01/13 (1 year, 1 month, 15 days from this post) is to have lost 100 lbs (average of 8-10 lbs per month). I think its a very realistic goal.

Until next time my friends! ... OH Just in case I'm learning about how podcasts/audioblogs/vlogs work so this might be transforming into another medium if so I'll let you know.